I can't say what it's like because I never started, cigarettes wer never permitted in our house. All I can say is keep Peter close wehn you think you can't stand it anymore. think of what we lost. Thank of your children. Io have a frind who smokes and believe me i have a seech ready, with pete's picure as a visual aid, to help her see h the erors of her ways. I miss Peter so much.