Wow...Katicam all those things/feelings you are experiencing brings back memories of how it was for me 17 years ago...Your right on about thinking about smoking every minute, the dreams and constantly thinking of ways to get out of this...I still dream of smoking every so often and found myself using other things as a crutch, like drinking and eating more, tons of coffee to make up for my nicotine loss and even increasing my sex drive to take my mind off of smoking...lol...Your lucky
I had no support as my wife and most of my family and friends/co-workers smoked...I found once I made it to a certain point(like a week) I would take personal pride to make it to 2 weeks, then three, a month and so forth...I guess after I made it to a week I didn't want to start smoking again and have to go through the same terrible torture this first week had brought me by trying to quit again because in the long run it would be easier to just suffer/do this once in your life then quiting 10-20 times or more(think of that)...It eventually slowly got easier as I replaced my smoking thoughts and daily activates with other thoughts and actions... I doubt that you will feel the good effects(just mental) that quiting has on your body in the early stages of quiting and you might even feel worse sometimes but after awhile you will find all the extra energy/breathe that you have even doing simple things like walking up a flight of stairs without gasping, I could even play an hour of basketball with my kids as before after 5 minutes I would be gasping for air and quiting......God Bless you and good luck...Only you can do this and just think how proud and clean you will feel after you conquer this nasty/dirty habit( just don't became a crusader for others to stop smoking after your clean) But that's a whole other story!....~Radd Guy~