Was to train my conscience so I could defend myself form criticism. All I wanted to do was to have something to say to answer what I was being ask since I was clueless. I got jerked around and bullied by people who thought that they way I acted was the they thought I really was. Now it is a matter of being bullied as people really believe the cover I took when I started defending myself. I was monitored as in that what I was saying I knew was being listened to but no one would talk to me on that. The things that I did was a bunch of reading and writing only to find out people thought I had to be a spy. I took it to the people who I knew must have had something on me and left an information nightmare. The things I said in Washington should not have been taken at face value since I knew them to be "true lies." I felt what I was after when i was put on camera at the CIA station in Washington and was threatened. They had the nerve to ask what I wanted at face value and said it amounted to treason. I remember having before this all got started being threaten so they could have me to reveal what I had in my file folder as in they thought I had a file folder and a security clearance. I was told that when I was at another place that I was disclosing state secrets but I knew that to be impossible because of what I didn't have. I knew that I was being put on the magnetic camera and the things that I was saying were going to be said that I had said as if they at face value was what I really knew. I could tell peoples minds were full of imagination due to the types of questions I had been asked and what I later learned had been said about what people really thought about what I had been accused of doing which I knew was not correct. now I here people grunt letters and try to sound out words they think I am, But I know my cover just went to far when I went to deliver an polluted/toxic information that I knew no one was wise enough to look to ask the critical questions which made those who listened to me into kool-aid drinkers. There was something that I wrote down on a piece of paper that I wrote since I didn't know what it meant and knew I would never do but it was taken as though it was that it was the only thing I do. Some people questioned my source of income and thought I did something that was taken at face value and it even got around to people trying to ask if that's what I do for money. And yes there was name calling and it was and still is incorrect and obscene and used as a way to bully me for not following the ways people tend to go about doing things. If you take things at face value you may never know the truth if you don't ask. The things I read had lead to people asking what I was looking for but nit never dawned on them that I was reading what anybody could and that people though it must have been espionage for me to read just to see what was there.