...over the death of a public figure. The only other one that comes even close is Johnny Carson, another icon of my youth. But Johnny had been retired for more than a decade before he died. I had time to say goodbye. I didn't have time to say goodbye to Peter. One thing I've been doing that helps is watch old tapes of Peter. I first started doing it after I saw Peter's announcement that he had lung cancer. The fear in his eyes frightened me, and I wondered if his doctors simply told Kaycee and the kids to just take him home and love him. The tapes brought me little comfort then because I couldn't stop crying. But now that Peter is gone, hearing his voice whenever I want makes me feel better. I STILL need to hear that wonderful voice, so I've started adding to what I'm going to call my "Peter Collection". Right now, all I have is "The Century", but I've ordered the "Reporter" and "Millennium" specials from the ABCNewsStore and will order other programs as time and money permit. Damn, this hurts!! But it's getting better.