Today may be the day. If not, I know it will be soon. I guess I am screaming for help. Disabled, depression, bipolar, going insane. All after open heart surgery that went south. Can't afford to pay the bills now as I'm in a doughnut hole. Make too much SSD to obtain assistance with utilities. Been in my home for 15 years so my asset value more than my debts. Can't pay the credit cards off, and being sued by half of them. Can't claim bankruptcy do to asset. Why have I bothered to work so hard for so many years just to loose it all?

I've called the National Suicide hot line the last few days. It hasn't helped. The problems wont go away. I can't take anymore. I sit in this house with only half of my utilities on. One month behind on my house payment now, and can't get out. I only know one way now. I know this is not a good idea to say this on the internet. I guess I need people to know that you need to ban together now to stop this type of destruction. The destruction of the American middle man.

Make to much, but don't make enough. It is a slow death. If I was in complete poverty I'd have all the help in the world. Housing assistance, utility help, free medicare/medical, and food stamps.  Now I can't even afford my medications. Like I said a slow death. I know this is not anything new for you to hear. I'm not the only one. I know I'm not the one who has it the worst. I was taught to not complain or have pity parties. I can't afford to pay attention let alone have a party. I guess this is my party.    

Doctor Tim Johnson, please help the others that are in my same shoes. The American people have lost their priorities. How can we send so much money over seas and dump so much money into wars, and yet can't create a program that really does save our people? All of our people. Is this population control by the government?

Hi calibar1122 and thank you for your question. Here is a response from the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline:

“Your situation sounds very overwhelming, complicated and painful.  It is not uncommon for people who feel alone, trapped, and in such pain to think about suicide.  Your problems appear to be more than you can face alone.  The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline would like to do everything we can to get you more care and support to help you cope with the many challenges you are facing.  We will work with our local crisis call center serving you to see what help is available in your area.  Please contact the Lifeline by filling out this form --http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/about/contactform.aspx --so we can follow up with you as soon as possible.”

Note: If you are in crisis, the National Suicide Prevention Hotline phone number is 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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