Honestly, my passion isn't gone at all. I did not mention I was diagnosed with Lupus about 12 years ago.
I had to make the choice to leave the long hours in nursing, getting lunch at 2-3pm in the afternoon after starting at 7, finding it difficult to get a bathroom break, when leaving for lunch my charge nurse who covered me never followed up on my patients care unless an IV went off. I loved Hematology Oncology where I worked after leaving my charge position in the ICU. It was a 10 hour day and 12 with the commute.
Overall, saddened by what I had experienced, I found that women in nursing can be their worst enemy. Instead of supporting each other, there seemed to always be a competitive nature and lack of respect and acknowlegement for those who have had much responsibilty and experience as I did. On this unit I was never included in any inservices, updates in the cancer field, and unfortunately the information was never passed onto all the staff. Many times I saw the charge nurse as being in control of the information which could only help the patients and families and ultimately us as nurses in our continual need for ongoing technological, research, and patient updates.
I feel I have a true gift to be able to get anyone to open up and share their deepest darkest secrets. I can tap into and get people to feel comfortable trusting me while being very vulnerable. I have always been sensitive, non-judgemental, fair in the workplace with all nurses and employees at all levels, and always delivered quality nursing care. I always have looked at the TOTAL individual and their needs, as I would make attending physicians aware of their myoptic viewpoint and treatment focus. I have very strong skills in organization, anticipation, looking outside the box, and getting any project done ontime and complete, if not overdone!
I cannot do actual nursing bedside care anymore, but want to be in the nursing field hopefully in a leadership role or one where I have a voice which is validated. I've thought of the political field, corporate nursing, starting a business....but I'm lost and just haven't been given any real concrete direction. I'm open to most anything where I work with people. I am a people person and not one to sit behind a desk.
Any feedback or suggestions you have I'd appreciate.