I sat there in the sanctuary and listened to my pastor give his eulogy as I stared at Sarah's coffin. As I stared at it, I couldn't help but think of Daniel. You see, Sarah and Daniel were both 20 and both are gone now and I don't understand why. The months since Daniel's death there has been so much speculation as to him taking his own life or was he drugged. When I got the word last night of Sarah's sudden death and was told she took her life because she did not make it into Pharmaceutical school, the tears started falling and my heart just broke for her mom, dad, sister and brother. She was such a great kid, doing mission trips for church, babysitting for church families, helping anyone she could but she just could not help herself by finding someone to talk to so she took her life. Life is so precious and though we will never understand why she took her life, Daniel just does not leave my thoughts either. I don't believe he took his life, I do believe someone took it from him. I stood there holding up Sarah's mom and cried so hard with her and at that moment knew just how Anna felt when Daniel died. The people who were supposed to love her should have helped her. I know Sarah's mom will have all the help she needs and will make it. I only wish Anna would have had it because she would be here today. This was the hardest funeral I have ever been to, Sarah should not have died. Daniel should not have died. I may be off subject but need to say one last thing, please, if you have kids, hold them, tell them you love them and remind them that it is ok to fail at things, you will not love them any less. I have watched my daughter fight for her life the last ten years and not a day goes by that I don't tell her over and over how much I love her and how grateful I am that God gave her to me. Our kids need to hear we love them to make it in this world. After hearing the PI talk, I can't help but wonder did Daniel hear his mom say those three words 'I love you' one last time before his life was taken from him. I guess we will never know.