My father died recently of "Leukemia" and we was very close friends because I'm a recovery addict so all that pain that I cause to all my family member is had being very hard for me to deal with forso many years. I have a lot of guilty feeling withing my self. My father was the best person in the word it's was the best gift that God give to me and all mine brothers incluting my lovely mother witch is in a lot of pain. Can't sleep at night many things run in my mind, thinking that I did not offer to my father what he always dream to see from me,. see me realized as a Person. Please I need some advise because I'm wasting to much time feeling sorry for my self and is not good for my recovery. Thanks........