I AM A STAY AT HOME MOM OF 4 YOUNG KIDS AGE 7,4,4, AND 18 MONTH. I ALSO AM IN NURSING SCHOOL. FOR THE LONGEST TIME I CANT REMEMBER BEING AUTHENTICALLY HAPPY. I ALSO CAN GET AGITATED VERY QUICKLY. SOME DAYS I FEEL LIKE I AM ACTUALLY OUT OF MY HEAD. IT IS FOGGY AND FEELS LIKE I'M  IN A DREAM. NOT ALWAYS BUT SOMETIMES. ALSO ONCE IN A WHILE I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE LEAVING THE HOUSE. I WOULD LOVE JUST TO HIDE AWAY IN PAJAMAS ON THE COUCH. MY HUSBAND ALWAYS TELLS ME I NEED A HAPPY PILL AND THAT I ALWAYS SEEM #### OFF. I JUST FEEL SO BAD FOR MY KIDS BECAUSE I DONT THINK I'M BEING THE BEST MOM I CAN BE. I HAVE EVERYTHING TO BE HAPPY ABOUT. A GREAT HUSBAND. FINANCIALLY WE ARE FINE. MY KIDS ARE ALL HEALTHY. NICE HOME. I WANT TO BE HAPPY BUT I JUST CANT. THE MAIN THING THAT WORRYS ME IS MY AGITATION. I'M ALWAYS YELLING AT THE KIDS. I CAN FEEL MYSELF JUST ESCALATING. WHAT AM I DEALING WITH ANXIETY OR DEPRESSION AND WOULD SOME KIND OF MEDICATION HELP ME? THANK YOU SO MUCH. THIS WAS VERY HARD TO DISCUSS.